"Success demands singleness of purpose.” (Vince Lombardi)
In a most memorable turn of events, while the angels led Lot and family from the fiery furnace that was the city of Sodom amid destruction, Lot’s wife failed to follow the single condition her salvation rested upon - don’t turn back. The angels had commanded them that they mustn't turn to observe the utter annihilation of the infamous sin city. Rashi clarifies that although they warranted to be saved, in truth, it was due to the merit of their illustrious, righteous uncle, Avraham Avinu. Their own wicked deeds would have earned them the identical fate of their fellow townspeople. Therefore, to witness the city’s ruin, as if to suggest that they were above such judgment, was not justified. Seemingly, once Lot’s wife violated that command, it subconsciously implied that she did indeed feel worthy of viewing the destruction. As punishment, she turned into a pillar of salt, which was appropriately measured in line with her sinful past of not sharing with others.
Perhaps, there is an alternative message behind Rashi’s explanation, one that will certainly resonate with each of us. We can all relate to past mistakes. Throughout our lives, there have undoubtedly been times that we erred in our judgement, stumbled in our fulfillment of mitzvos and fell short in actualizing Hashem’s expectations of us. Nonetheless, in Hashem’s infinite mercy and boundless love for His children, He recognizes our limitations and urges us to overcome the hurdles in life. With His abundance of care and compassion, Hashem longs for our repentance and dearly yearn for us to return from any wrongful ways. He lifts us from the depths of sin and stands us on our feet once more.
To successfully conquer our weaknesses and repair our past, it is crucial to focus on the goals we seek to achieve. We must remain focused on our destination, not the rocky road behind us. To remain fixated and preoccupied with our less than admirable past is far from a healthy path to recovery. Rather, we must shift gears, gain positive momentum and maintain a sense of confidence as we pave a decisively different path ahead.
Lot’s wife failed to understand this message that the angels attempted to relate. “You had a similar history to those around you, but you have ingrained potential due to your family ties that were severed. You can regain that connection once more so long as you look ahead. Should you look back - look back at your previous misdeeds - you will have made a decision to remain disconnected from your potential and remain forever woven with your past.” And alas, she forfeited the potentially glorious future and faced a death that mirrored her past.
It is often too easy to regress into our poor habits and live a life of complacency. However, the scenery along such a road will forever remain unfulfilling and with a potential latent. Alternatively, we can learn from the parsha not to turn around. Not to see the chain of destruction behind us, rather the possibilities of personal growth and spiritual satisfaction that awaits us up ahead.
“Now I see what I am is holding me down - I’ll turn it around.” See yourself in a brand new way and don’t look back.
“The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph.” (Thomas Paine)